“….. And Your Name is Faith” – Archangel Michael
While fulfillment has a standard definition in any given dictionary, everyone defines fulfillment in life differently. We have different goals, dreams and ambitions and we come from different backgrounds, carry forward different ideologies and along the way we perceive and understand environments, people and situations differently; and therefore adapt accordingly.
I can, with all the confidence of a 30 year old, say that I know what I want with a certain amount of clarity. I have professional, spiritual and personal ambitions, hopes and dreams. Yet, I know that my life is not mapped out to the nth degree and I don’t have every second planned. There are moments of highs and lows in everyone’s life in the process of wanting to accomplish their dreams and despite being a spiritual person, I am no different. There are times when I know that I have to let go and let things be but being 100% human comes with its set of benefits and potential pratfalls. There are times where my emotions overrule logic and my logic overrules intuition. I’m sure you all will agree with me here – we can often be our own worst enemy.
So every once in a while, it is important that we do a bit of soul searching, to make sure that we haven’t unwittingly blown off course and get back on track. When we just ‘be’, we can uncover new potential within that can enable us to be more than just those dreams if we so allow it.
6 days ago, I started a 12 week spiritual journey with Brenda. This path for fulfillment is not only a journey of self-discovery but also a mission I have undertaken to uncover truths about myself and to take responsibility for my thoughts, actions and words. I am taking the lead when it comes to creating and manifesting the life I want, not my circumstances.
I’ve been on this spiritual path for years. I learn new things everyday about myself (believe me!), uncover new opportunities, strengths, weaknesses and possibilities. And through all that, gain new understanding of my actions and my environment.
“I am a witness to my thoughts and actions, I listen to my intuition”
In the session last week, this was our intention. We were gently led into a guided meditation, a truly blissful and freeing experience where I visualized myself letting go of all the blocks preventing me from bearing witness to my thoughts and actions. After all, our thoughts and actions are energy through which we create every moment of our lives.
Since I am a very visual person, it safe to say this meditation took me on an adventure of sorts with a little bit of intrigue, comedy and drama… and whole lot of realization. While I will not bore you with details, I will say that I witnessed myself letting go of things that did not serve my highest good and received messages to keep moving forward, to have faith in myself and the universe. I’ll be honest, after ‘coming back’ from the meditation, I was a little blindsided by the realizations, as what I was ‘witnessed’ was more than I expected, but in a good way of course…!
Awareness of self is 9/10th healing, they say. Over the next few days, it was as though a switch had flicked on inside of me, I was indeed hyper-aware of everything I thought, wrote, said and did. Anytime, I was on the verge of saying or thinking something negative, something inside me would be like ‘Wait a minute…. What if I can say it this way instead?’ And something miraculous did happen – I felt at peace, a sense of ease that I’ve been trying to find within myself during the last few months but couldn’t due to the demands of my professional and personal life. If there were any negative situations beyond my control during this week, I handled it like a pro – with ease, grace and joy. So then, I couldn’t really call them negative, could I? Just a couple of learning experiences. Anytime, I felt like I tumbled off the self-awareness wagon, I’d ground myself, ask the universe for guidance and protection. During this week, I kept up with my daily reflections and meditations zealously which in turn fueled the positive progress that I was making with each passing day.
Today, as I write this at the end of day 6, I am in eager anticipation of Week 2. For… what is fulfillment of life? – it is finding myself, owning my truth, letting go and just letting myself be.
Thank you Brenda!